My second love

My second love 

 My longest relationship was 13 months with my second love. He was one of the most wonderful, amazing guy ever. However, his feelings towards me, was something to strong for me to handle. We are, exactly 2 years 364 days apart. & everyday with him was truly amazing. I really loved him, but he still loves me. It’s so hard to be around him now, ‘cos I let him go, but he hasn’t given up on me. I want to be friends with him, but it’s so hard. Him and I had so much memories together. We were off/on for awhile. People thought, him and I were the prefect couple, until the day when everything started to fall apart. He become, someone I hated. A jealous, mean, selfish, abusive and clingly type that I could not handle. Our relationship started to die on our 7th month with each other when I found out he lied about his virginity to me. & then, I found out more and more lies & I couldn’t take it. I wanted to break down and cry. The person I thought he was, disappeared. I admit, I changed also, I became more independent, abusive & girly. Something he couldn’t handle either. I wish, our relationship ended in a good note but, it didn’t. He left me but then asked for me back. I couldn’t accept it, I didn’t want him back 'cos, truth be told, I lost feelings for him on our 10th month but didn’t have the courage to end it with him. I know, I’m not a good person, but who is? My second love, I’m sorry for everything I’ve done to you. Please, get over me, since I’m already over you.